By the title of my post, one would think the topic would be my son. He is, after all, almost a year old. Well, sorry to disapoint, but my adorable BabyK will not be tonights topic. We will save him for another day. 
I recently stumbled upon my old ipod. It was a gift from my parents for Christmas. I’m pretty sure I got it my junior year, maybe it was sophomore…
Anyway, listening to the music brought back many memories. Highschool was, overall, a good experience for me. I wouldn’t go back, but I do enjoy reminiscing. I’ve got some really good memories, I’ve also got some memories that make me wonder, Was I really that stupid? or Wow! Really? I went out with him? Just kidding! Well, kind of.
I had 3, 4-ish serious boy friends throughout highschool and 1 after highschool and then I met my one and only. I’m going to talk about 4 of them in this post. Yes, I’m going to go there! And if you’re wondering about the one serious-ish boyfriend, he’s not going to be a topic in this post. It was short and sweet and he’s a good friend, still. It was one of those situations, where it was just never the right time or place and we’re much better off as friends anyway.
So, here it goes…
I was driving home from work the other night, anxious to get home to my sleeping baby and fiance. I had my newly found ipod on shuffle. I never thought that the day would come where I could totally relate my life to a Dane Cook skit. Yep, it happened and I found myself laughing out loud. This particular skit is what gave me the idea for this post. While my life is pretty comical these days, it had nothing to do with the present. But this one skit reminded me so much of a previous relationship. It was the boyfriend before Jeremy. Let’s call him #4. Oh! The skit? It’s called “The nothing fight”.
#4 was my longest relationship, yet somehow the relationship that went nowhere and never would have. It just wouldn’t have! He wasn’t a bad guy, we just weren’t good together! Not at all! Why didn’t someone sit us down and tell us? It was so frustrating being in a relationship that was at a stand still, I just didn’t know it then. I knew that I was frustrated, just not why. It’s kind of funny to look back now, and say “Hmmm, maybe it’s because we practically hated each other!” I mean, we really did. We could fight over absolutely nothing. It was a 3 year relationship that ended 3 years too late. I urge you to go find a video of “The nothing fight” by Dane Cook. We were so that couple and I find it completely hilarious, now. I’m pretty sure he’d get a good laugh out of it too.
Of course, as with any relationship, I’m sure I left it wiser than when I started…but to be honest, I’m really not sure what knowledge I gained with this one. Maybe that, some people just are not good together and that you can’t change that person to be who you need. When you find your self in a relationship with someone who drives you so crazy, that you want to punch them (ok and maybe you do, actually punch them) it’s probably time to bid them farewell. I did though, learn how to change a tire. Now THAT is something! It only took me 3 years. 
Now for #3. He was and is a really good guy! I shared some of my best highschool memories with him. Young love is always sweet, right? We were at a crossroad and trying to figure out our lives. Sometimes two people who want the best for each other will actually hold one another back. I did learn that it’s always best to be honest. Honesty can sometimes be a difficult thing. It’s tricky, but I got caught in a lie, that broke the bridge of trust and gave a particular someone the chance to twist stories. That’s all it took to tear that relationship apart. It was really, very hurtful for the both of us , I think. I was made to look really, really bad. I was talked about behind my back and stories were twisted so, so badly. I did it to myself, but it’s so much deeper than just the break-up.
It was so hard, knowing that 1 person was able to manipulate my friends so badly. I messed up, but I was just made to seem like such a horrible person. I wanted to defend myself, but it would have just fueled the fire. It was best for me to bow out and come to terms with knowing that people will think what they want. If they want to believe everything they’re told about you, they will. You really won’t change their minds, you’ll just waste your time and whole lot of tears. That was actually a really good lesson to learn. It can be a cold world out there and there will always be people who want to bring you down. If you know in your heart that you’re not that ugly person, that is what really matters. People like that are missing something in their lives, something you’ve got and if they can’t have it, they don’t want you to have it either.
#2. What did I gain from my relationship with #2? Yeah, honestly, I’m really not sure.
#1. Oh, #1. My first love, I guess you could call him. I met up with #1 a few times after highschool. He hadn’t changed a bit. I mean, he had a good job and was doing well for himself, but he was that same ol’ guy. Some people will never change, or in his case will never stop changing. Lost. That’s my opinion anyway. You can’t really stick with 1 person, when you don’t know who you are. I hope he proves me wrong, really, I do.
What did I take from that relationship. Well with first love came my first heart-break. I look back on it now and it was quite pathetic. I mean, my world must have been pretty small for it to have effected me THAT much. I soooo wish I could go back and explain a few things to my heart-broken, insecure, immature, little self. It’s rather embarrassing to look back on some of those pitiful memories! Ha! **Blushing** But most importantly, If I ever have a daughter, I will keep her as far away as possible from the #1′s in the world.
All joking aside. It’s fun to look back on the memories. It makes me realize how far I’ve come. How much I’ve grown. How lucky I’ve been. I sit here typing this, snuggled between my two pups; while my wonderful fiance and lovely baby boy are fast asleep right beside me. I had to experience #1, #2, #3 and #4 to get to #FOREVER, because of that, I wouldn’t change a thing.
